A little more charm please!

I can't explain how 2012 has went for me till now. My life has changed, and the direction I want to move forward. I stopped believing in God. It was hard to accept but it went fine with the rolled days. People think that there must be a shocking incident in one's life to stop believing in God. But I had no such thing in my life. I defended, challenged, argued for God but later I had to accept what science had to tell.

I feel the life lot easier. I stay calm most of the times, yes, most of the times. I feel confident in my every gesture. There are many more changes in me to mention. Where did I get all these charming qualities? Still I'm struggling to find the answer.

Well, today I had my first practical Exam of 6th semester. I had prepared well enough to face any question. When I picked 'rendering of a rotating cube with perspective viewing', my face lit up. I wrote the complete program on paper, showed to Examiner, got the signature and started typing the program on computer. I was done with everything in just 30 minutes, except executing my program. When I executed, I had a shock; a blank window showed up instead of a window with cube inside. I tried for another 2 hours rectifying the program, but all my efforts went in vain. But still I had the same calm face.

Finally I couldn't complete the execution, but I demonstrated my project, answered viva questions and came out. After coming out, I checked what was wrong with the program and found that I had missed a single line of code which was trivial of the trivial mistakes. I felt sorry for myself to lose 20 marks for just that single line of code.

So just forgetting my mistake, I was coming back home. But in halfway, I discovered that I had forgotten something else - Exam hall ticket! But that didn't generate shock waves inside me; I just laughed at myself. I sent message to my friend asking whether he got his hall ticket. He had also forgot to take. So finally we told one of our friends to collect the hall ticket. Monday I have my next lab Exam and I'm sure I won't make similar mistakes again.

I'm eager to finish this semester as early as possible and get myself along with some social services. For this, a little more charm please! :)  

Finally the Spirit is . . . Back!

When I was asked to anchor the farewell party, arranged for our seniors, I said I'll! That was something unusual for me. I always hated to be on stage, even to collect prizes, from my middle school time. I had performed dance and drama for many times in my school life but anchoring is a different thing, right ?

Few days before that special day, my friends were telling to me: "After the farewell party, if anyone ask what was the main attraction of the party, everyone must say chethan's anchoring." I just nodded my head, because I was unsure what would happen.

Finally the day came, I had no other choice than to be on stage, anchoring the show. I had no practice, rehearsal or preparation. But I was calm, I was calm because I had a confidence in me that I could manage. One could imagine how risky it is, but the spirit in me was chanting something else. I don't know how that spirit was larking all these days inside me.

I stood on the stage, with my heart beat racing above 90 per minute, quite normal. But my legs were shivering, that was quite natural but abnormal, to say. I started my words with a 'shayari' (two to four line poem). The crowd applauded, the shivering went down but not completely. I had lot to say in my mind but none of them came out as words. So I shortened my words and called our guests to speak. When they spoke, I recalled my thoughts and was preparing myself at the spot. Now the words started to flow a little easily after another shayari and my legs stopped shaking.



After all the guests spoke, I wanted to tell another shayari but forgot! I had no time to recall, I couldn't think of anything for few seconds and was tensed easily, I just said 'I forgot the shayari after looking at this crowd!'. Everyone laughed and I was able to recall the shayari in those few seconds.

Finally I concluded the show with few flaws, that was quite an achievement! I was happy to turn one flaw into flow and other flaws were shortening of my speech and using two silly slang words. Other than these flaws, It was all good. I was happy but had I done good up to my friends' expectations ? I had no idea what way the seniors felt.

After the end of whole show, my friends said that my anchoring was wonderful. That was natural to hear from friends. But next day, when all the seniors and lecturers appreciated my anchoring, I felt very happy. Our head of the department came to class and appreciated me and said that he couldn't control his laugh three times and laughed out loud. The whole class turned to me with a smile, I was happy... and a little proud :)